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This website is under construction. Not all pages are accessible. I'm piggybacking on the website for Green World Trust ("Helping People Helping the Planet")

Now I could just as easily call this website

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because these are all my way of working with the situation of
ecological breakdown and spiritual breakthrough

On the Dragonfly Trust website, I describe myself as very ordinary, fallible, etc; yet here I must also admit to being different. This seems like a contradiction but it's not. The two are not incompatible. All my life I've been suffering Asperger Syndrome (until very recently) and this drove me to find unusual ways of coping, which was also a blessing because I was opened up to the spiritual dimensions of reality in a powerful way - the only way I could cope.

I have been driven on and on, because I felt that more "power" was needed to redeem and heal the world problems than I could find anywhere, and I was determined to go straight to God to resolve this. I attended the Quakers for many years and steeped myself in their best. I dug out the best of Rudolf Steiner - I could feel the transformative power of Steiner's vision and work as much as did Sir George Trevelyan. I encountered the Findhorn community and felt I would have a similar path to Eileen Caddy, which happened.  But it was not until I encountered H... that I finally felt I had come home and found the tools I needed to heal the planet. Many years later, living with challenge at the deepest level, my experience has not changed.  H... is not at odds with the Jesus I know from my wide encounters and deep questions, and from many coincidences and outright miracles; H... resonates with everything coming to light about Mary Magdalene and her true relationship with Jesus, and there is nothing from the Christian doubting side that I cannot answer. 

I would never have believed this when I started on my life journey.  I started from an utterly conventional intelligent agnostic point of view. But the more I have lived and researched, the more amazing holistic, spiritual, scientific, educational, enterprising resources I have found bubbling up on all sides today, the more deeply I have cleaved to Spirit, and the more thoroughly I have become disillusioned with the still-powerfully-influencing wellsprings and historical sources of the Church - though the Church still holds, and has always held, remarkable individuals. Jesus I have always loved, the presence of "the Holy Spirit" in many churches I do not doubt, and with these, I still hold out for deep reform and, above all, a "Ministry of Research and Listening".

*Note: owing to its history of persecution and current need for privacy, I cannot directly explain my spiritual tradition but as Jesus said "Seek and you will find".